Struggling with Anxiety

During this pandemic, I've learned a lot about myself and those around me. Some people thrive well in chaos, but this is not true for me. I've been struggling with anxiety since high school, but it has become more dominant during my college career. They say that anxious thoughts come from things we do not know or cannot control, but being a control freak like myself, I need to know what is happening or what is going on. 

With Covid-19 lingering around, I don't know when things are going to be okay again. I don't know when I'll be able to see my friends, or my family again. It's tough to go out there knowing I'll risk myself or my loved ones from contracting the virus. I can't believe it's been 7 months since March, which was when we were all told to start wearing masks, quarantine, and be 6 ft apart from one another. 

Sometimes, when I feel really anxious, I tend to pace around or exercise. I try to paint, draw, or even read. But sometimes, my anxiety runs at 60 mph and I start to panic, and think, what is happening to me? If you're reading this and you're feeling the same way as I am, just know you're not alone. I get that feeling too. Then the feeling subsides, then it comes back again, but later on I feel okay again. Do you feel that too? Do you feel loneliness with your anxiety too? That's me. That's my story. 

Sincerely anxious, 

Anonymous